Yesterday I went out for dinner with my closest friend. It was so lovely and relaxed, however, all I had going through my mind was you need to get this out of you... you don't need this food, you don't deserve this food, you are a failure with no control. But for the first time in a long while, I didn't give in. I wasn't wiping away my tears because I'd been crouching over a public toilet trying to gain some 'control' I kept going. I made a choice to ignore the voices and I felt horrible for it. But, I know that I am strong enough to fight through this. I may not like it and it may be the largest test I've ever given myself but I knoe I need to do this. I need to get my life back.
I'm petrified for my assessment but I'm so ready to make a fresh start and actually live my life with a genuine smile on my face.
Onwards and upwards
Sophie x
